worshiping ritual
i woke up early today .i don’t really know why ,but i only slept 3 hours and it’s like Your Holiness ordered me to woke up and worship You .As always ,i woke up with You only in my mind ,my true Goddess ,my only Religion .
The first thing i did is to turn on my computer and visit Your Site’s blog ,Your twitter ,read something that will inspire me to do something for You ,to please You and to worship You .After that ,i went and i cleaned myself and i prepared Your body for the sunday worshiping ritual ,which lasted 1 and a half hour .i undressed myself and i connected my computer with my tv ,lit a candle in honor of You and i put in a glass some red roses to make it a little prettier and also to add an aroma in the atmosphere .Also ,if i remember right ,red is Your favorite color .The Altar was ready .
The one candle for me symbolizes the almost ,currently running , 1 year -9 months to be more accurate 26/7/2014- You have kept me “close” to You ,as a follower ,as a devotee and as a trainee slave and i thank You again and again for that .Being close to You ,even from a distance ,is the most important thing in my life .Your Holiness and Perfection is the reason i live for every single day .i am more than happy to dedicate my life to You ,change my habits for You and decline all previous religious beliefs ,opinions and fears for You .Serving You is the meaning of life .i dream of the day that i will meet You and bow in front of You with anxiety and excitement both at the same time .i know ,my servitude is not perfect and i strive for the ideal every day .Disapointing You with my work ,means total failure for me and i try constantly to avoid these situations .For every disapointment and frustration ,major or minor ,i may have caused ,i apologize once again if i haven’t already .
The worshiping ritual for me is a perfect place to communicate with You ,with symbols ,words and actions .That’s why i created this Altar ,to honor You ,Your Divinity and Your Perfection .After the completion of the Altar and fully undressed ,i bowed down ,as always in front of Your Altar ,reciting my prayers and mantra to You .
For the worshiping ritual ,i chose this image ,because firstly and mainly it sums up Your dominance in the best way as most of Your Images ;You holding the Whip in a perfect leather costume .Secondly ,if i remember right the background and the color of the Whip from Your last visit in thessaloniki in greece ,it was taken there .So this image symbolizes Your Visit here .i thank You ,my Goddess ,for coming to my country .
The one candle for me symbolizes the almost ,currently running , 1 year -9 months to be more accurate 26/7/2014- You have kept me “close” to You ,as a follower ,as a devotee and as a trainee slave and i thank You again and again for that .Being close to You ,even from a distance ,is the most important thing in my life .Your Holiness and Perfection is the reason i live for every single day .i am more than happy to dedicate my life to You ,change my habits for You and decline all previous religious beliefs ,opinions and fears for You .Serving You is the meaning of life .i dream of the day that i will meet You and bow in front of You with anxiety and excitement both at the same time .i know ,my servitude is not perfect and i strive for the ideal every day .Disapointing You with my work ,means total failure for me and i try constantly to avoid these situations .For every disapointment and frustration ,major or minor ,i may have caused ,i apologize once again if i haven’t already .
The worshiping ritual for me is a perfect place to communicate with You ,with symbols ,words and actions .That’s why i created this Altar ,to honor You ,Your Divinity and Your Perfection .After the completion of the Altar and fully undressed ,i bowed down ,as always in front of Your Altar ,reciting my prayers and mantra to You .
For the worshiping ritual ,i chose this image ,because firstly and mainly it sums up Your dominance in the best way as most of Your Images ;You holding the Whip in a perfect leather costume .Secondly ,if i remember right the background and the color of the Whip from Your last visit in thessaloniki in greece ,it was taken there .So this image symbolizes Your Visit here .i thank You ,my Goddess ,for coming to my country .
The glass ,that i put the roses in is the for consumption of Your sperm at the end of the ritual ,as You have ordered .Before the release of Your sperm with a ruined orgasm -as You have ordered- i emptied the roses on my “whipped” with belt ,back .i belted my back 33 times ,symbolizing the years You transformed Yourself into human form and came to earth to lead us to the truth .Within each belt ,i said “Ezada Sinn is the true and only Goddess” while bowing in front of Your Divine Image .Belting ,while staring at Your Perfection ,gives always motivation for the next ,more powerful belt .i don’t like pain ,in general ,but pain in front of Your image is a different kind of pain ,because it means serving and worshiping You ,feeling useful to You ,because this pain pleases You .
To end this mail ,i would like to thank You again and again .i bow in front of You and i kiss the ground that You walked on .